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Monday, November 03, 2003
Last saturday my friends came over and we had a wonderful party with lots of eating, drinking, pool, mahjong, cards, etc. Loads of fun. Thanks to my parents for reminding me that i throw a party every year. Was so caught up wif F_ this year that totally forgot about it, that's why it was belated. Oh well. Luckily it wasn't too late =)
Most of today was great, had 1-hr of school (prac), waited in library for F_ to finish his prac as usual, then dropped him off at the mrt and headed home. Mom and sibs were eating lunch so i sat ard with them and talked cock and ate some keropok-chips (yum). Then went upstairs, initially was damn tired in school, thought i'd hit the sheets the moment i came home, but after a cold shower felt so energetic i actually attempted to do my physio tut, but couldn't get past qn1, so did anat instead...and i typed it out this time, cos i was in a neatfreak and boliao mood...Felt a sense of accomplishment when i finally finished it (took rather long...about 2 hrs i think)!! And was so happy with my neat work (for once), felt like sharing it with somebody so I emailed it to F_, seeing that he usu borrows my tut to zap or even gets me to do the tut (once when he stayed over and wanted to sleep) i thought he'd be happy, but instead he scolded me and accused me of trying to prevent him from doing his tutorial. I was really pissed and damn sad, it totally ruined what should have been one of my better days...It's like doing something nice for somebody and anticipating a pleasantly surprised reaction from them, but instead getting bitten on the hand. I felt like crying, but I told myself that I should try to ignore it, and I played some wc and felt slightly better, though i couldn't bring myself to reciprocate any of his "i love you"s, and ended up quarelling with him on the phone after. I think if one of my friends had done that to me, I wouldn't even bother with that person anymore, but F_ is my boyfriend and although I'm saddened by his reaction i still love him. So I'm just gonna write this on my blog to remind myself never to do anything of this sort again for him, and then go to my bed and pray, and try to forget about this.
F_ says that he is coming over tmr afternoon, but just now he told me his left eye is swelling up, so we shall see...Hmm just discovered that I have a shitload to study for next saturday's test, cos it has both biochem and physio, and both tracks are covering a lot of topics this time. Bad.
Younger bro is still surfing the net next to me. Looking at aeroplanes again. He has no more school, neither does my sis but she has chinese o this friday. Dad called back fr yellow mt just now, he says it's frigging cold and hazy, but he's waking up at 5.30am tmr to watch the sunrise....isn't he cute? =) Reminds me of one of my friends...when we went to a class chalet, went off to watch sunrise alone...I think watching it with someone is romantic, but watching it by yourself makes you realize how magnificent God is, how wonderful His works are...
Going off to bed now, gonna read the Bible...Pray for F_'s eye to be healed, pray that our relationship will grow stronger and that he'll love me enough not to be mean to me anymore, pray that Dad will have a good time in china and come home safely, pray that I'll have the strength and discipline to study for the upcoming test, pray that my sis does well for her chinese, pray that He will watch over F_ and take care of him....
11:56 PM
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